Being Raw

Being Raw
Written by: Sophia Rose

Everyone says that you are defined by who you are around and what your passions are in life.

Even if we like to think they don’t, in some way or another we are defined by them.


This year my life has been pretty crazy to say the least. A lot has happened.

In the beginning when everything felt like it was falling apart, everything I knew and had was fading and it scared me a lot.
Without those things that you thought made you, you, then who are you when they disappear? The raw being of yourself right?

I think everyone has come to that point in their life where they have lost so many things that made up who they are.
I thought long and hard how I would explain that feeling, what I came up with was the word raw. Is it the right word or not? For me it is the perfect word.

So here I am the “raw” being of myself. It scared me, because I did not know who I really was without those things in my life. I was really lost with what to do with myself or what the future held for me. When I thought about the future it scared me so much, it just looked dark and empty, this was new for me. I’ve always known what I wanted my future to look like and how I was going to make it happen. So looking in to the future and seeing a sea of abyss scared me. I went on for a week or two just really confused being this raw being. I finally came to the realization one day that this is perhaps not a scary thing but an amazing thing. Me being this raw being didn’t mean I was empty inside, it meant I was ready to embrace what this world had planned for me. It meant I was empty inside but ready to receive. I’m ready to explore what this amazing world has planned for me. I will now find what I want to make me up who Sophia wants to be, instead of what the world wants me to be.

What this comes down to is that finding yourself is a scary thing. No one can help you find who you are. So I embraced the raw being of me and started looking. I still am finding myself. But some amazing things can happen by losing the things you thought defined you, and discovering what can go in its place.